Masquerade

So here I am, deciding to pick up blogging again coz I can never really let go of this 6 years worth of memories online journal thing. Plus I actually edited a crap ton of pics way back but never go around to actually writing the posts and being OCD lil me, its been forever bugging me like an unchecked list buried way back in my brain.

So, DCF masquerade party.

Do I ever love my new fellowship group for all their utterly fun events ♥

In case you didn't know, I am in love with masquerades. Not the debauchery stigma attached to it ok but the glorious dresses and fancy masks and the classy glamorous mysteriousness of it all. This could also be attributed to the fact that I am in love with all things Victorian or something like that. I have no idea if masquerades are from that period but you get what I mean. Old England/Europe whatever. And medieval times. I am a secret history/ancient days nerd kays.

Anyways, we were supposed to design these flexible plastic masks but bloody things were being all discriminatory by fitting only caucasian and hispanic features. Cheekboneless, low nosebridge and narrow eyed asians like me doesn't stand a chance in it. I look like some hillbilly alien in it and nearly killed 2nd sis with laughter when I wore it.

So I decided to use makeup. And youtube. And google image for blatant copying inspiration. I may have some makeup skills ok but artsy imagination I do not have. Am a boring science student.

First look I experimented with to decide if I wanted to go with makeup or buy a mask off ebay:

Decided that I could wing it at any rate so makeup it is.

Got even more adventurous the night before and went with a whole different design instead:

I cannot claim credit for the design as I copied it from this amazing girl here.

I used NYX black bean eyeshadow pencil, both black pencil and liquid eyeliner pencil for the black parts and NYX white eyeshadow pencil for the white and as a base for the yellow which is a mixture of a bunch of different yellow and golds from various palettes. Before topping it off with Hard Candy golden glitter eyeshadow to give it a glittery look and adding rhinestones. Also set both the black and white parts with eyeshadows respectively. I outlined my face with a white eyeliner pencil first in case you're wondering. Easier to erase if you make a mistake.

It looks really realistic from a distance and many people didn't know it was makeup till they were in my face.

Also super attention grabbing coz every single guy that night kept staring at it and compliments were endless.

Which was surprising to me coz I never expected them to notice, being the clueless species they are, and actually did it for the girls? Because I wanted a conversation starter with them ok since I'm fairly new and wanted to befriend them so we can ramble about makeup but noooo, most just huddle in their girl groups and kinda ignore me after asking what I used :C

Nevermind, I get along better with the guys anyways *pats wounded ego*

A lone pic of the night which I stole off someone's facebook coz I didn't take any. It is very uncommon to camwhore here ok unless you own a camera phone (mine suck) which is more acceptable to whip out coz its a phone I guess? Or if its a dslr. Anyways, this post went on longer than it should. Only 82131293 more backlogged posts to go. hum de dum.

Goodbye 2011, Hello 2012

If one were to ask me how I felt on the last day of 2011, I would say that it was a good year.

Although if I were to probe deeper, it was also probably one of the most depressing years ever but as long as it ended well, its all that matters right? :D

Top 5 best decisions made in the year 2011 that turned the year around:

1. Quit school after winter quarter.

Back then, that decision seemed like 'the end of the world' for I was already behind most of my peers and a one year break would only leave me further behind in the dust. But looking back, honestly, what is a mere few years. If I intended to stay on, I might graduate in time like every other of my peers, but who's to say that would guarantee success? Maybe that year the DAT would be extremely hard. Maybe there would have been a huge influx of aspiring dental students and limited seats. Maybe this and that and the list goes on.

What I do know now, after having to pay back my student loans for the time being, is that I'm glad I quit. Why should I waste so much money on out-of-state fees for the sake of keeping up appearances when I could just patiently wait a year and get the rightful full scholarships I'm entitled to for all the hard work I put in. In fact, looking back, I wished I quit right after Fall. Could have saved me a couple more thousand in debt T_T

Anyways, like my dad said: "In life, it doesn't matter how soon you'll get there. It is about how long you can stay there."

So true.


2. Left Koinonia.

Won't elaborate much on it except the fact that not all things meant for good are good for you. I'm glad it helped many others find a better and happier life and good wishes to them. But leaving all those verbal abuse (which I didn't know was abuse until I left and could see clearly for once) was the best thing ever.

Found DCF and DCA instead where the environment is like what I grew up with all my life. Unconditional love and very family based :)


3. Moved to Davis.

Made the decision to keep the lease in Davis and moved there together with my sister despite not being in school for the moment. A very good decision made after much prayers and it only gets better and better each passing day. Got a steady job there that gave me a taste of living independently and able to help provide for my family back in San Diego too.

The year off from school also meant that I have time to play Martha Stewart and decorate our house as prettily as possible and get to fully enjoy it, unlike my other housemates who are always too busy writing papers to do anything else.

Our place is currently the envy of all our peers and I like it hurhur. Just because we are college students doesn't mean we have to live like one. I have the time and money and by jove, I will make good use of it before I have to resume school.


4. Bought a Kindle.

Because materialistic decisions can sometime turn out to be one of the best too. The world's libraries at my fingertips. So convenient and totally re-kindled (ohhh, no wonder its called kindle. I see it now....) my passion for reading.


5. Bought a PS3.

Something I've been putting off since forever because I never had time for games when I was in school as the effort put into getting straight A's always left me wishing for more time.

But I don't have school now do I! :DDDD

And dang, it really only does everything. Games is only like the tip of the iceberg. How the heck did I manage to live without one for so long I have no idea.

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And there you have it. The ones that I can list off the top of my head. The decisions that were also blessings in disguises and if I were to make a list of blessings, it would take forever. The most important thing I learned was to always trust in God. Yes, yes, I supposedly learned this a few years back but and I probably did but not to this extent. Apparently I had to sink to rock bottom and lose everything to see it or something like that.

But seriously, if you would just let Him take the reigns, especially in your darkest moment where it seemed like He abandoned you which He never did btw, I highly doubt you would regret it. You might not see what good it does you in the beginning but as time goes by, you would see the wisdom in all the transpired events and go 'ahhhh, twas good I listened and obeyed'. I know because that is my life story. I lived it out.

So here's to 2012. A future I cannot predict and have since stop predicting and mapping out coz life can really change without a moment's notice. But what I know is that God is never changing and forever the same and I may not know what the future holds but know that as long as I entrust my future to Him, it will never go wrong :)

22nd Birthday

Celebrated my 22nd birthday at home with 2nd sis. And by home, I meant my home in Davis which I currently share with 4 other girls who are gone at the moment due to winter break. We left way later coz we had work. Such is the life of a non-student. Anyways, 2nd sis decided to cook something nice for my birthday :D

Bought pre-made stuffed clams for myself as a treat. The kind of treats I always stare at through the cold storage doors in supermarkets, like corn dogs or pizzas or cocktail shrimps or fancy desserts, but never buy because its too expensive imo and swore that one day when I am rich I would buy those but alas when I do have the money, I still think its bloody not worth it and instead spend it on fancy gadgets which I think is worth more :\

I think this is partly due to I can cook, whereas I cannot make gadgets.

Plus I get to eat those food at parties and they never taste like what their mouth-watering packaging advertise -__-

Everything besides the clam and buns are made by 2nd sis ♥ Fragrant rice, awesome salmon, and salad with all the good stuff :d

Happiness ♥ Words cannot describe how blessed I am to have a sister going to the same uni as me and living together. We thought it was going to be a nightmare since heavens know we don't really get along being in the same bedroom at home but away from home, its different. It's like a bestest best friend only 100000 times better. Because she's your sister who you can trust more than anyone in the world aside from your parents. Family... is truly a treasure.

Black Friday '11

Remember how I said a few posts back that one day that empty corner in my living room would soon house my TV and PS3?

It's a 32 inch. I missed the 40' deal coz I chose thanksgiving dinner over it hurhur.

Another thing to cross off my list.

My housemates are honestly very lucky to live with me. My year off from school and working life gives them a home their friends envy. Rest assure that decorative stuff like pictures are going up on the walls next year.

Halloween 2011

Blogging for the sake of blogging even when I really don't feel like it at all but its a pity to just give up so here's a post on my christian fellowship group costume party.

No proper costume coz I waited way too late to get one, hence most are already sold out. Second, I am a cheapo and refuse to spend anything more than $20 bucks on a one time thing and thus there goes 75% of the costumes. Cannot wear slutty either coz its a christian fellowship so there goes 90% of the costumes. Combine all together and you get nothing.

Thus, I rummaged through my and my housemates'' closets and came up with this idea: nerd girl.

Ok I lie, my housemate (being the same procrastinator cheapo like me) came up with this 2 hours before her party and since hers was a day before mine, I just stole her idea :3

I did switched things up a little anyways and look more like a pro nerd than her heh.

I own nothing cept the white blouse and 3d glasses lols.

Anyways, slew of pictures of the party which was boring btw and thus I am now volunteering to be on the planning team because I have since come to the conclusion that my fellowship, awesome and cool as they are, have probably never heard of schedules and proper planning :\

man, I look super asian here. Also, I am tall ok! a lil above 5ft8! but that girl is crazy tall T__T and super pretty too like some gorgeous model I can stare at all day and am wondering why she doesn't just go be a supermodel.

Oh 2nd sis is Geisha girl. That cheapo bathroom robe like costume cost $20 ok! ripoff. And looks nothing like a geisha. But nothing makeup cannot help save ha!

Also, I know the flash is very unflattering where everyone looks 10 times fatter and I gave up trying to photoshop because its impossible so there.

Peter Pan, Hook and idk what. Lost boys maybe?

Bond, Bond Girl and the evil villain lols.

No really, dude went and print a M-16 (ok I think M-16 is a gun or something so M something whatever the British equivalent of spies I know it starts with M) ID since he's English and thought it fitting/perfect amongst us Americans who adore anything British.

Really, we do. I also realized how ignorant all my american friends are about the world with the questions they ask him :\

Although to be fair, I grew up in a commonwealth country so that might explain why I know a number of things of the UK. That and being in the Hetalia fandom ha. And you thought anime were useless entertainment.

70's divas dang I love them. So much flair and style and oomph! As you can probably tell, I love fierce girls. Sadly, I can never pull off such looks and look better on the cuter side (which I secretly dislike but you must flaunt what you're given with so I can only dream of being sexy fierce ha).

I thought he was Neo, but he said he was Mr. Smith, then come tuesday he said he was Neo so idk who he really is.

With my core group leader Carol who dressed as a farm girl just so she can get free Chipotle burritos coz they were giving out free burritos for anything farm related.

She's the kind of pretty I want to be *wistful

Scarlet from the game Clue! Or Cluedo if you're British. Or wth is that if you're from Malaysia like me who never heard of it till I came here. That girl is the most awesome girl I have ever met and I want with all my heart to get to know her super well but I am very tongue tied around her coz she just radiates awesomeness that I feel so inadequate lols.

My brilliant idea of substituting my purse for my schoolbag! it fits my costume perfectly right! Ingenious I must say!

And because flash was so relentless, I decided to make up for my misery by camwhoring in my bathroom where the lighting is perfect and I needn't use horrid fat inducing flash.

A whole slew of shameless camwhore shots I never really do and feel embarrassed to post up but my skin looks damn gorgeous here so let me be shameless for once:

This is prolly my fav. It looks like your typical regrettable high school yearbook photo haha.

Channeling my inner korean schoolgirl hurhur. 

Everyone always think I'm one till I'm starting to doubt my heritage I swear. 

I wasn't kidding when I said I was gonna be shameless and stupid.

Anyways, last pic which I like coz I personally deludedly think it looks like some japanese pv screenshot. feel free to disagree with me.

And there you have it, my halloween for the year 2011 and first time I ever got to dress up for one.